Male Madness

Tomorrow I'm going in to see a therapist about possibly getting T. Needless to say, I'm pretty nervy. Part of this, of course, is about worrying that she won't deem me fit to be a real live transsexual, but also that maybe I'm not one. At times I'm terribly gung ho about transitioning, and sometimes I'm more ambivalent. Unfortunately, this is one of those times, and I'm afraid I'm wasting my insurance-covered therapy visits with oscillating, when it would take enough time/money if I were totally psyched on T. At the same time, I feel like, even if I feel like I might not be ready for T right now, I probably will be ready by the time I get approved for it, and it would be nice to have the choice once a doctor writes a yes or no letter.

Yet another new name for this blog

which I feel awkward about. I certainly have no time to be writing it, especially when I have a much cooler blog that I should be writing. Hell.